LESBIAN. [old post]

For so long, she had my heart in her hands.
Manipulated my pulse, so much, it now skips beats steady.
Sickly I was,Blindly I followed my weakened heart.
Shes my soulmate.
And with that thought in my head I knew it would never end.
The up's and down's, were so often..
We now have our own frequency of love.
And the tables turn...
Now I am the one who holds her life in my hands.
Squeezing tight onto that powerful muscle to ensure she never leaves.
I let go...
& shes still there...
Shes still there... As the relief, becomes belief.
I see her begin to fade... & then shes gone.
I try my hardest to see her but shes not there...
But she said she would stay here, with me.
&now when I try to get her heart back...
She's tells me shes done, we're done. Us is gone.
And with those words that weakened heart of mine,
beats stronger, and pumps harder.
Creating a whole new rhythm I never experieneced.
What is this New Liberating feeling.
And alas Im back at square one.
Because now my mind is telling me to stay,
When my heart is telling me to go...
I love you, always & forever.
-yi